I'm back!

The first post of the year so late. I'm really sorry to the people who actually read this. (I seriously wonders who does). Well, it's been a few long weeks. School has been as usual school. Not much to talk about without getting a few demerit points. I'm typing from my iPod now, and it's surprisingly easy. I'm on the train going home.

I'm listening to "Mark II" ironman soundtrack on my iPod using the Genius feature. 48 hours ago, I would be in melacca most probably eating a horrible dinner. Why was I in melacca? It was an overseas education programme. I think I'll rant a little on that soon.

I really hope I'm not boring you with this. I'm feeling that I really need to rise up this season. I'm in 3 ministries, hopefuly I'm not overstretching myself. Exams are drawing near. Welcome studying till 2am. Art projects are due soon. It's going to be a long weekend.

Ah Final Fantasy X's "To Zanarkand". Thank you Apple for the Genius feature.

Ah the lovely sound of a piano. It's heavenly. So pure, so simple.

Ah, it seems I keep jumping from subject to subject. When will my posts get organized.

My birthday just paased, Valerie mailed me a card, my friend's bought me a shirt, the Live Feed ministry texted me, my CG's planning something, I'm blown away.

I long for God, I long for His presence.

Fire fall down, on us we pray.

Let our hearts burn with a flame, a consuming fire for Your Son's holy name.

30december?

Well, it seems like it's already the 30th of december, it's time for my usual reflection about the year post. I'm in jurong library now, just making some use of time before I go for a new generation meeting with acs barker.

It's been a short year of insane growth. it feels like only yesterday I was stepping into acs I for the first time. In a few days, I'll be 14, I'll be sec 2. This year has been an exciting year. Met new people, discovered new games, got a mac, found a vision, entered into Bmt, amt, usher, live feed, new generation, cg admin, leader of a few, growth spiritually, L1R5 of 6, zone f going downstairs, Yishun satellite church, parents getting saved, so many things, 2008 has been a good year.

I bring a few things and a lot of responsibilities into 2009. Firstly, my vision to be the zone f live feed head and leader of 30 by end 2010, the conviction to have more fear of the Lord and burden of taking my school. So many responsibilities I won't bother naming.

One of the most important things is the fear of the Lord. I rather live in fear than live in sin. I want to broken for Him, for his cause, I want be lead by faith, if not driven by fear.

Break me down

To my knees

Break me down

The best of You is the best of me.

See the world down on her knees

Shine Your light!

I see the city as a man, bent his knees to lift his hands, closed his eyes and prayed your prayer

It's going to be a great year. Do it with great atitude.

Posting from my ipod

Hey guys,
Sorry for the long wait for a post. Even though it's the holidays I'm still really really busy. Now I'm in church waiting for Jing hong to discuss the live feed outing with her. When I get home I'll give you my usual long post but for now just settle for these updates. Firstly, the asia conference is over! It was an awesome 4 nights there! We also has ccc down for the combined service!
I also went to help out in the children church camp! (I have a bad feeling that I'm using too many exclamation marks) the children are so powerful at such a young age. It's amazing! Mae ann is doing a great job.
A satellite church is opening at yishun!
Haha I have to go now
Will post soon!

How I crash a mac

I was running:
Toast 7 (DVD burner)
Finder window open
Firefox
2 Mircosoft Word documents
1 Pages document
iTunes
5 Messenger conversations
Stickies
Address book
Calendar (Not shown)

Yes, this is how i abuse my computers. This is how I use it on a normal day. At least it didnt crash but it did get slower

Quality Blogging

Ah, the infantile posts of blogs everywhere. In nearly half the posts I read are some boring personal recount of their day. You know what, unless you write like JK Rowling, Eoin Colfer, Ken Akamatsu, Dan Brown or some other author, its boring as crap. I'm not saying your life is boring. I'm just saying that whenever I read your blog, I want to read something with more depth, something which you put thought into. For example, read Marcus' blog, full of poetry, (with the exception of a boring post). Please, put in some thinking, some personal feelings, deeper than

someone jio me out tmr siolz . i'm gonna be stuck at hm w/ nthn t do ):
hmmm .. tuesday going moooooooooooooooooooovie ;P

hmmmmm .. i dint really do much tdy
was playing guitar .

Please, if this is your blog, and you notice it, don't kill me.
If you want to post something short, at least add some thoughts. Seriously. Or if you want to post something short, at least make it impactful. I read enough personal recounts at school.

Another thing, use at least readable English!!!!!
It's so irritating when people type in short form!!!!
I'm ok with the occasional hse or smt.

But not the whole damn post!!!!
And, please at least try to use capital letters and punctuation.

Me sleepy now.

My heart aches.

My heart aches...

My heart yearns.

Damn you puberty. 

Sometimes, I hate bloody puberty. 

I'm becoming irritatingly self-conscious in front of people especially members of the opposite gender. Its bloody irritating. I'm feeling so insecure sometimes. Argh! Puberty is one of the dumbest things ever. 

But, on the other hand, girls are well, how do I put it. You could say there is nothing that melts my heart like a cute girl walking towards me and waving at me. 

Arrgghhh! There's the puberty acting up again. 

The word puberty sounds vulgar and crude somehow. 

I don't know man. I'm just trying to focus on my vision. 

I guess that's what happens when you read Love Hina when you're 11. 

My heart wrenches when I see her. 

Arrgh, puberty. 

Relax, no BGR till like when I'm ready. haha. Most likely at 20 or something. 

Must control hormones!

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Hey my readers,

for some strange reason, the hits keep going up even though I don't post regularly. The last itme I saw it was only about 3k hits. Now it's doubled to 6.5k. Who visits this place?

Hmmm.... People on Deviantart really are talented.

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Was scrolling through Deviantart, searching for some Final fantasy stuff. Came across some beautiful shots.

Yeah, this is Rikku from Final Fantasy X-2.

Went to Kenn's house yesterday. He has a great house. It feels so homely there. And thanks to him, now I have Metallica and Led Zeppelin. Also have some Final Fantasy Soundtracks. (I know I haven't played the game but heck) Listening to Jump In The Fire by Metallica. Lets change it to something more calming.

Ah. To Zanarkand. Final Fantasy X Piano Collections. Be

autiful piece of music. I could just put it on repeat and listen to it for the entire day.

Well some updates about my life. This blog will not die.....yet....

Made a new F2 wallpaper

Like it? Go to http://bor3ds0ul.deviantart.com/art/F2-Wallpaper-103347525 to download it.

Woah, the power packed weekend was really power packed.

Monday had me going for the CHC morning prayer in church at 6.45am and skipping the St John SANA course. Also calling a lot of people for Nick Vuijicic.

Tuesday had me going for the prayer meeting in the morning at 6.45 again. Then slacked in church and practiced for Cam 4 while waiting for Nick Vujicic service. Can't be complacent any more after getting discipled by Soo Yee. Soo Yee can be very scary. Before service, we went for a LAN outing with Dilan's friends. Isaac is really good at CS. He plays too much Wolf team. Bloody AWPer. Nick Vujicic service later was awesome! Got a free T-Shirt and DVD! Awesome! Bought a shirt for Wayne.

Wedensday was most of the same, went for morning prayer meeting,

practiced with Cam 4 more and played with Marcus' new laptop. Service was even more awesome. My Dad got saved that day! Finally after months of prayer, he got saved. The circumstances are really just God. He had a really improtant meeting that he was supposed to attend on that day but his secretary just said he didn't need to attend. The week before, he went for a reunion dinner with his ex-classmates and two of them just kept talking to him about Christ. Then he told God if the worship team played Amazing Grace, he would accept Christ. And on that day, they did!

On Thursday, I relaxed a bit and just rested at home for the day.

On Friday, I went for Pastore Kong's service. Was on Cam 4. Service was great. We really took the service and brought it to a whole new level. The Live Feed ministry is not going to repeat history!

Saturday was on Usher for Pastor Kong's service. Really fun.

Sunday was finally part of the congregation during the service. Praise and worship was really annointed even though I was really tired. Pst Kong's sermon was impactful.

And on Monday, a group of Zone F and some Children Church people went to North View Primary school to reach out to them. I was really fun talking to the P6ers. It was like a mini-heartfest! I'm excited for the BBQ on friday.

Haha typed so long. just one last pic!

KAWAII!

Pictures

Some random pictures from Live Feed.

Could it be, that you're in control.

Finally,
I've stopped procrastinating enough to type you a beautiful, deep and thoughtful post.

Could it be,
that You're in control
Now I see,
I don't know it all

My results are out, and what I've seen is nothing short of a miracle. I have 6 A1s, 2 A2s and 1 B3.

This is a miracle.

If you've seen what I've been doing during the exam period and my results are truly a miracle.

During the pre exam period, I've been coming to church for all three services, never compromising. I've served actively in ministry, came on crew for both live feed and usher (I have no idea how I got there.) I remember the day before the exams, I was doing live feed duty. Even before the exams, I was still convicted to go three services a week plus connect group. Even with going through all this, I can still achieve this kind of results. It is not through my might, but God's power. Through God's power, I was able to study till 2am every night before the exams. Through God's power, I was able to rise up in leadership even through the exams.

I just think that this entire season is to build faith in me. Faith that I can do it. Faith that through God all things are possible. Faith for the revival. Confidence in my abilities. Faith in my capacity. I've learnt to lean on the Lord and just depend on Him. Have faith in him. Not to rely on myself anymore.

This entire season, I've grown
Through the mugging season, I've still grown spiritually.

Glory,
All that has breath give him
Glory

Situation Report

Sitrep time. 

Exams are over, finally. 

I got the miracles.

MIRACLES!

Hallelujah

Almighty One

There is none like You.

I got the miracles promised.

The results aren't out yet but I have faith that I'll do well.

God promised and delivered. 

God never fails.

Holy.......

You are Holy..........

Who was 

And is

To come

Holy..........

You are Holy.........

Saviour.....

Healer........

I'm standing at the feet of the Miracle Maker.

A song I've sang so much

crying out to God late in the night

I've studied less

Didn't study during the weekends,

Half asleep in class half the time. (Doesn't that make a quarter asleep?)

Saviour. 

Healer.

I'm staring at the face of the Miracle Maker.

Jesus

Precious Jesus.

Found you

Saviour

I'm walking in the shoes of a Miracle Maker

But as I wait upon the Lord

I'll renew my strength

I'll soar on wings like eagles

I'll run and not be weary

I'll walk and not faint

Isaiah 40:31

Thank God

Enter the gates of heaven with thanksgiving

Thank you

for the promises you made

for the gift of life you gave

Thank you

for this great church

for this great family

Thank you

for great leaders

for great pastors

My soul sings 

My soul sings

How I love You

Macintosh still pwnz windows.

Updates:

"Wants" list is updated

"Profile" bug fixed

ASUS computer is breaking down

Life is awesome

Mighty Mouse fixed

Using the Razer Mantis mouse pad for iMac

W810i Phone still alive 

Exams are over

Graduated from BMT B

Broke through 5.4k hits. (Who visits this site? Seriously.)

Posting

I guess, I have to post to keep things interesting.

Sleeping at 2am every night nowadays. Mugging and mugging and more mugging. Don't call me a nerd, I can't study on weekends. And gots to do Quiet Time, although have to do it by 11 if not too sleepy. 

Hallelujah.....

Hallelujah.....

nitey nites now.

There goes the holidays

How majestic is Your name

How wondrous is Your grace

You're my shelter from the storm

My redeemer and my God

You bring comfort to my soul.

Its amazing sometimes how God speaks to you.

While walking home one day with a piece of pvc cardboard on my hands, I wondered about flight theory. I just causally asked God to show me how flight theory works and how it applies. After a few minutes of playing with pvc, I just felt the Holy Spirit give me understanding on how a basic aerofoil works. 

Reading the Bible, I stumble on a hard verse, I ask again, and it is revealed. 

Ask and you shall receive.

Ok meandering around abit.

Term 3 vacation is gone.

Here's a quick look at what I did.

Monday: Zone F Heart to Heart Chalet.

Tuesday: Robotics training

Wednesday : Training

Thursday: Heartfest 08

Friday: NJRC

Saturday: Study and service

Sunday: Service, bought two books by Pst Joakim Lundqvist.

You and your Bible

Reaching the schools for Jesus. 

Well, there goes my holiday.

Pst Joakim is a really good author. He includes everything a teen could need to know their Bible!! 

Well, back to reading

My heart is exceedingly sorrowful.

I know it's a little weird to have such an emo title. But, my heart just is. 

Just during service today, I suddenly thought of the people from Pei Hwa I didn't bring to church. 

Hekai

En Quan

Valerie

Benjamin

Keisha

Joan

There are so many, I can't remember. I can remember En Quan crying, I can see it, from 2 years ago, I can still see it so vividly. I was a jerk before coming to church. I remember it now. Jerk to my cousins, friends and En Quan. My heart is remorseful. Never again, will I hurt people to the point of crying

I can see Keisha sitting across the aisle in math, lending me a stapler.

I can see Joan hitting me.

I can see Valerie chatting with me as I waited for people outside school.

I can see Benjamin laughing at his birthday party 4 years ago.

I can see Hekai talking to me about Halo as we walked down the steps.

I can see them all. Why didn't I reach out to them, why didn't I bring them to church. Why? Why? The question rings in my head. The sin of omission. I should have, I should have. All of them should be standing beside me in Zone F service, praying next to me in prayer meeting. 

All of them should be saved.

Never again....

Never again....

Never again will I repeat that mistake

My heart is exceedingly sorrowful, even till death. It is mournful towards the lost.

Family:

Hermann, Brian, Ronald, Astro, Terance, 

Sorry for being a jerk to you all.

You will get saved.

All those unsaved in ACS (I)

Lee Meng

Jing Kang

Cheesue

Tae Joon

(Not a long list)

Rivik

You will get saved!

Still mournful yet full of faith now

Camp switching

Ok,....

I've switched camps. 

I've gone to the mac side of the world. I can't believe i stuck to windows for so long. 

I just got an iMac. 

Specs:

20 inch screen

2.66 GHZ (Woots)

4gb RAM (w00ts)

250gb hard disk (not so w00ts, wanted more, some people don't understand my ravenous desire for space)

Mac OSX Leopard (tank LOL): Start up time : Roughly 20s

Shut Down: 10s

Windows Vista: Start up : 45s - 1min

Shut down: 30s

Mac seems unnaturally fast. And the lovely 20 inch screen.... ahhhhh.... computing paradise.

I first fell in love with mac while using for photoshop in computer studies lesson. Photoshop was lag-free.... amazing......

All my arguments are gone.

Lack of games - no problem install XP with the lovely boot camp.

Graphics Card: No problem, ATI Radeon

Speakers: Lovely built in speakers.

Price: COMEX 08!

Compatibility: So many mac apps, what's the problem

User - friendliness: How did I have a problem with that in the first place?

Ahhh.... Bliss.

Game performance

HL2 ep2 runs on near full graphics, just with shadows turned down for framerate.

Trackmania united forever the same, just shadowing

Command and Conquer 3 mid- high

Company of heroes mid -high  

Front Row runs so much faster that the windows equivalent.

iWork 08 pwns Microsoft Office upside down

Brilliant! What took me so long?

Your Glory Goes Beyond All Praise

Okay, to the Hekai who keeps telling me to update, I finally am. But, today its not going to be the BGR post. Haha wait a little longer. At the science centre now, Robotics competition, can't go back to Pei Hwa, sian.

Back on to business, today's post is going to be about one of the greatest things to see on Earth. A person's soul getting saved. Looking at the weekly attendance for church every Tuesday. Seeing the number of salvations every week. Seeing the guy in front of you raise his hand during the altar call. And just crying tears of joy as he prays the sinners prayer. Seeing the church grow week after week slowly and slowly. Seeing people go into the kingdom of heaven. That is the church. This is amazing times, amazing times indeed. This is the time of revival, this is the time where the world is turned upside down. We are history makers and world changers.

BGR post soon.
I feel like VALVe now, delaying posts like they delay games

Damn Imbaness - Shahdan

A taste of the past

Hekai, why have you betrayed me,
you blasphemer, you heretic, you who lost faith in this.
Ahahaha. Just kidding. He wrongly stated this blog was dead.
"How did you not know this was all part of my plan?!" - Kane (Command and Conquer 3)
Woke up at 5.30am today to pray and worship.
So refreshing.
Math paper today, I should be able to do well, because of God. Not through my strength but by Your might.

So as I checked my email, I decided to look into some of the old folders to decide whether I should clear them.
A shock awaited me.
As I looked through those folders, I found emails from as far back as Primary three, when I first opened my account. I thought all those emails had been deleted. I have emails from my days as a Nazi. I have emails from Sheng Chun, who you know, Shermane, you also know (implying something here) When Benjamin and I were good friends. Haiz... I miss Ben. Miss his spunk, miss his sarcasm, miss even the teasing.

Its amazing how God could use me back then. An insecure, crush filled, young, immature, 12-year old boy. Its amazing how God can use me to reach out. Now, after a year and a half of following Christ, I'm a different man. Now, a secure, mature (somewhat) young man. I don't need crushes or girlfriends yet. The love of Christ Jesus is enough now.

Master,
Mission,
Mate.

Yes this is a build up to my BGR post. As Pastor Joakim Lundqvist said, your mate should be found while on your walk with God. You'll see someone else walking next to you, at the same pace. Then you say,"Hey." Hahaha. Pastor Joakim is so funny. Swede. But he is right, don't actively look for a girlfriend, find her while walking with God. Pastor How says this, get a mate three years before you plan to get married. If you get one 10 years before, say 14, by 24 when you marry her, you already sian of her face, haha.

School now, 6.40am. Still hungry after breakfast.
BGR post soon!

He is mighty to save

Ah, how time flies. Its now the fourth of August.

In January, I prayed a short prayer for Ren Hao to come back to Singapore. Just that one short, simple prayer.
5 months later, he came back, for good. That was not the only miracle, after he came back, began a season of fervent prayer for him to come back to church.
Academic Excellence weekend came. Even after 2 months of failures, after passing him the Genesis of a Genius sermon Cd and the Connect magazine, he stepped into Heart of God Church for the third time.
We had moved mountains. By we I mean God. The mountain of parental objection was moved and he could come.
That day was better than how I dreamed it in the fourth dimension. God had answered.

Ephesians 3:20 (New King James Version)

20 Now to Him who is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that works in us,

God did exceedingly abundantly above all that I asked or thought. On that day, he worshiped like he had been in church for years, he praised God with zeal and excitement. His heart was so open. He responded during the Altar Call. In January, I didn't even dream that he would be back so quickly. Ren Hao's name has been added to the book of life, welcome to the eternal family open to all. This is a God that answers prayers.

Saviour

He can move the mountains,

My God is mighty to save,

He is mighty to save,

Forever,

Author of Salvation

He rose and conquered the grave,

Jesus conquered the grave.

Shine your light and let the whole world see

Singing for the glory of the risen King

Jesus

I have this vision for everyone who steps into this church.
No matter what skills you have
How little you have to offer
You have the potential
through God to be a
LEADER OF HUNDREDS,
IN A CHURCH GROWING TO THE THOUSANDS

Philippians 4:13 (New King James Version)

13 I can do all things through Christ^[a] who strengthens me.

Oh, and by the way, Festival of Praise was awesome. Too bad for those who missed it.

THIS BLOG IS A MEGAPHONE FOR GOD

I will do a BGR post soon. Going to rant about it.

1337 speaking Christian,
Kevin

haiz

So tired, still walking.

"Even when completely covered in mud, you must keep moving forward" Evangeline A.K Macdowell, Negima.

Isaiah 40:31 (New King James Version)

But those who wait on the LORD
Shall renew their strength;
They shall mount up with wings like eagles,
They shall run and not be weary,
They shall walk and not faint.

Kinda cool quotes.

I have to lean on the Lord.

Can sleep at 2 and wake up at 6. haha.

Lolcats

no deep stuff today, too tired. Prepping for exams.

Nite

3K!!!! w00tzz!!1111

W00tz, my blog finallyt reached 3k hits!

Live, Love, Lead

On my knees,

I bow down.

Sing about the healer

and the hope I've found

Took my tears,

took my shame

washed them all away.

Well, after a discussion with Wayne for a quarter of an hour (would be longer if he wasn't busy, I'm here posting.

I really thank God for Wayne, my leader.

He relates to me on so many levels. Such a wonderful leader. Been really communicating with him a lot. Being discipled so much, having my character forged and being put through the refining fire. Its wonderful to communicate with your leader so much. Been talking to him for half an hour daily. Amazing!

Been learning and growing so much